I've been drinking a TON of water lately trying to make myself feel better about how I've been eating, but I don't think it's helping me eat less.
I had to put my dog Gypsy Rose down 2 weeks ago. I almost posted a long post about how wonderful she was and how much I miss her. I had her from a puppy. She lived to be fourteen and a half, and then she had a stroke and developed epilepsy. Her back legs barely worked. It was the right thing to do, putting her down - but it left a hole in my life. My dad and I were with her when it happened, and I think she appreciated that.
I do have another dog. Popcorn. She misses her sister and won't sit in Gypsy's chair. Pops would sit in Gypsy's chair all the time when she was around - but now she won't.
I don't want to go on and on... there's a risk of that.
What else is up? My boyfriend has a job. Which means we'll probably be moving in together. I had a seasonal job - but I guess that's over now. I don't want to work there anyway. It kept me on my feet - but they don't tell you anything, it took an hour to get there, they payed minimum wage, I was constantly busy, and the floor managers got mad at me if I didn't look busy enough. I put up with it, yes - but I don't actually want that sort of abuse.
Other major life event. I took a leave of absence from school because I owed them money.
Then my late financial aid from last semester came in, too late.
lol, oh well. At least I have some money. I was so exhausted with being a student. A semester off will do me good. I need another job anyway.
I will say that I feel like I'm on the verge of a new motivational spurt for losing weight. I feel suffocated in my clothes.
My sleep schedule is completely backwards again, though. Which pisses me off. I don't want to be a vampire - and the longer I sleep the more total time I spend in this house. I always get home around a certain point in the night because of buses, but the later I sleep, the later the bus I catch. Thus squashing my boyfriend time. I'm actually writing this and it's 4:22AM - I'll set it up to post at a reasonable hour, though. I tend to do that.
My house is incredibly depressing. I'm powerless here.
Anyway... I'll force myself to write more. It will help get my weight down.
I love you girls. I hope you're all okay.